something to say..............

已经三个月没写东西了。。。 我在忙什么？？ 哈。。 我进了医院差不多两个月咯。。T.T 开开心心出了院谁知道又再进院。。 现在总算可以坐在家里休息一下。。哈哈！！ 在这三个月里，我的病真的让我醒悟了很多事情。说真的，这个病对我来说真的有好也有坏。。怀的当然是令我很不方便。。我的脚和手都很弱，很没有力。。好的，便是让我知道无论发生什么事，家人永远都是最好的。。=）其实我真的想过很多次要放弃，可能有些人会觉得我时常都说想放弃，他们也无奈了，听厌了。。。刚开始可能我会介意为什么他们不理我？？不过现在我不管了！！因为真真让我撑下去的理由是我的家人和我的一班好姐妹还有好朋友！！
我住了这么久的医院，我的妈妈便跟我一起住多久。。她一直都陪着我照顾我。。她睡那椅子也睡得腰酸背疼了！！ 真的很担心她。。还有我的二姐，她特地请假两天从新山回来代替我妈妈照顾我然后又回去。。她在这里的两天我真的很开心！！虽然我们没做什么特别的事情，不过我有那种过回以前的生活。。很舒服很自在。。=）他们一直都没放弃过我，所以我一定要振作！！一定要好起来！！。。。
还有我的一班好姐妹。。她们差不多每个星期都会来医院看我一次。。在医院里用轮椅推我去走走。。谈谈天，说说笑。。=） 她们从一开始便鼓励我。。就算我的情绪多差也没放弃我。。。=） 这一次我的病真的让我们的感情更加深厚，也让我知道了谁是我永远的好朋友。。。谁是无论发生什么事也会在我身边的好朋友。。。=）
还有一班好朋友。。。他们虽然不是认识我很久，不过他们也是有关心我，鼓励我。。 我也很想对他们说声谢谢。。=）



i have something to say....
my disease might take away something from me which is my health...
i can't move around freely just like normal teenagers and it also takes away my time which i spend with my friends...
but............
it gave something to me too...
because of my disease, i realized that who are the most important to me in this world...
i realized that how important to have a healthy body...
i have learnt to think positively no matter what happen and it's the time i have to be more mature!! everything also depends on myself especially my recovery...
i'm the only 1 who can help myself to fully recover...
so......... wong yoke ling, try your best to change yourself!! =)

friends...^^

as i said before this.. i got a feeling i will be not able to spend time with my friends soon.. and that's true... now my situation get worst already.. very inconvenient to go out with friends..T.T haih... sometimes i do feel 'zhi bei' and paiseh for keep asking help from friends... though they are kind enough to help me but just feel paiseh..T.T but after that day went to sing k with my ji muix and secondary school friends.. i really got the feeling of touch... haha.. mayb we have been knew each other for so many years, i not really got the feeling of zhi bei and paiseh to ask help from them..=)
yy...... i will not forget what u told me in msn... 'we are like ur family'.... though this sentence seem like quite simple for others but it is a powerful sentence for me.. yup.. we have been knew each other for quite many years.. and u all accompany me past almost every single difficulties.. without ur support, i think i can't alive until today... hehe..XD don't worry, i will try my best de..=) we gambate together!!
pn...... thx alot for lending me ur warm n strong arm when i need it!! it's really hard for me to climb staircase recently...T.T though just very short distance, but i feel very xin ku and i need very long time to finish it..=( but u all will not leave me behind and pei me walk slowly.. i really feel super happy and warm..=)
wy...... thx for giving me ur patience when im climbing up ur suzuki big car.. haha.. i still remember last time wy very care for safety de... after she open the car then will faster faster go in and lock the car.. haha.. for safety purpose ma.. i learn this from her..^^ but now she will say..'slowly slowly.. no rush..' haha..XD somemore when i can't go in the car because the space too small for me then she will reverse out first only let me slowly go in.. may be all these thing would be very small matter for other people but for me, it's really warm and it shows that they really care for me..T.T they will always by my side when i need help.. i can feel that..........." do not hesitate to ask help" from them.. hahaha..XD
not forgetting... i wanna thx to huei teng and wei ying too..^^ u both r really my secondary friends!! though u both dunno anything about my situation, but wihtout asking, u both just know that i need help and immediately lend me ur warm hand.. haha.. really my old friends!! lolx..
by spending time and going out with them, i no need to worry about anything.. when i say that..."shit!! the chair at there very low!! i sked i can't stand up!" then u all will say.."no problem la.. we help u ma can lo.." haha..XD


really thx alot friends!!! U ALL JUST LIKE MY FAMILY!! I MISS U GIRLS ALOT!!..T.T

团聚

米饭就代表家人。。一家人坐下来吃饭就代表一家团聚。。
我真的很想念以前我跟我的家人在佳节时一家人坐在一起吃饭。。 一家团圆。。。。。 现在却只能是回忆。。。。

永远在心中

this post is specially dedicated for natalie, hui ern and lei ying..=)



她们是谁？？她们是我在college认识的好朋友。不知不觉我已经开学五个月了。。在这五个月里，其实除了读书的压力，我觉得最辛苦最不开心的事情是我的病带给我的不方便。它真的影响很多我的日常生活。我的脚啊。。手啊。。我真的觉得很辛苦很累了。。。=（ 不过，也因为我的病，让我认识了一班好朋友。我真的很感激她们。。她们真的帮了我很多！！特别是natalie 和 hui ern。。 她们是我的同班同学。。无论在班里面或出去吃东西，我们都是在一起的。我想大家都能想像得到我有多依赖她们吧。。哈哈。。有时我也觉得蛮不好意识的。因为她们真的帮了我很多很多。。。变成她们好像我的阿四！！哈哈。。时常帮我拿这个拿那个。。不过，说真的。。。我真的很感激你们。。谢了，朋友！！ =） 在这个时候，我真的不能帮你们做些什么。。不过，我答应你们，我一定会尽量让自己好起来的。。等我好了过后，我一定会做回你们的阿四！！ 哈哈。。 natalie，改天我们一起去shopping，你的战利品就让我来拿吧。。=) hui ern,你时常都拿着一堆书的。。我知道你的muscle不是假的。。可是改天你就休息一下吧，让我来帮你拿一些。。=） lei ying,虽然你不是跟我同班的，但我也很谢谢你在我需要人陪我，听我倾诉的时候，你都很乐意地陪我。。而且我每次都很喜欢在三更半夜才找你。。哈哈！！sorry for disturbing ur sweet dream..T.T 不过，说真的，真的真的谢了。。=） 改天轮到我做回你的阿四吧。。哈哈哈。。。我能帮你做什么？？ 哈，我也不知道。。我帮你拿你的包包吧。。请你吃东西当你穷的时候。。哈哈！！

but seriously... i'm really appreciate it.. thx for lending me ur warm hand when i really need help.. what u al have done for me, everything will be kept in my heart forever.. thx alot, frens!!!...=)





and... of cause there is also another batch of frens will forever stay in my heart... yy, pn, pi, ss, wy n cf... whenever i feel not happy or down, i also still got abit feel lucky because my sickness has brought me one of the most valuable thing in the world................. true friendship...=）

speechless......T.T

i'm really speechless.... just now i can felt that my heart damn pain til i cant speak a single word...T.T it's just like a knife cutting my heart... why?? why always like that??.. i just hope that she will understand me only.. but i know that she forever wont...T.T i really speechless in this situation... heartbroken...=(

my life...

my blog is half dead!!.. haih.. i cant online at home recently.. wait for me to move new house first la..^^ ok.. let's talk bout my life recently.. start new sem edi.. quite busy and T5 really drive me crazy!! so many theory my eyes also @@....T.T i hate theory.. but i like T4..^^ cause mostly calculation.. and nowadays i really lazy to study at home.. everyday i also feel like goin down subang find my friends yam cha only.. but of cause i din't go everyday la.. but when i free and got car i will go!! kakaka..^^ i feel happy and funny to spend time with them.. they do help me alot at college and also at outside.. i feel im so lucky to have this kinda friends..^^V of cause i still got another batch of ji muix~ they will always in my heart!! lolx... this sat can meet u all edi!! so happy!! sun bian can go see nic teo too! wakakaz^^ i really lack of ideas what to write edi...T.T just end here bah.. and take carex lo all my friends!! nowadays alot ppl sick.. must take care of urself properly and stay away from those virus!! haha..XD my college there also got 1 tao fu sick edi! kelian kelian.. lucikly she dunno i got blog so she won't know i wrote down here!! kekeke..^^V

如果我变成回忆

recently i'm listening to this song and i love this song!! i like the meaning of this song.. we must appreciate what we have now and do not wait until everything becomes memories... i strongly agree this... everytime when i'm listening this song, it reminds me of my second sis.. i miss her so much.. last time when she was still staying with me, we always argue with each other.. because both of us also hot tempered.. i even tried b4 ran away from my house at midnight after quarrel with my sis.. but she is still my sis who i miss alot!!! haih.. i got 2 sis and 1 bro.. but my second sis is the closest to me among my siblings.. she is the one who take care of me when i was still a small baby.. last time my parents were busy working.. i still rmb when i was still a baby, still don't know say a single word, i keep on crying and of cause my sis don't know what i want as i don't know how to answer her.. she tried everything to make me stop crying but failed.. at last she gave up and just simply played a song(peng you by grasshopper) and i really stop crying!! lolx.. mayb because the beginning of this song got baby's voice.. hahaha..XD then when i was studying at primary school, got 1 time i came bc home with my both legs bleeding! coz i fell down during pj... then that time my sis still haven't own a car.. my parents haven't come back home yet and my house left a bicycle.. so no choice.. my sis ride bicycle and fetch me to the nearby clinic.. that time i was a super fatty!! my body size round like a ball!! haha.. and my sis thin like bamboo!! i really can't imagine how my sis was able to fetch me by riding a bicyle!! lolx.. then when teenager stage, when i was down, not happy and whole day didn't speak a single word, my sis and my bro in law will realize something happened and keep ask me what happen? who make me angry?? 'sat lun' izit?? lolx.. i will never tell my family anything happen to me outside.. so sure i will tell them nothing!! then they also won't ask me again but they will bring me go summit play pool, play dance machine, play daytona.... they just wanna cheer me up.. i really miss those moments we went out til late night and came in home quietly don't want let my parents know.. haha..XD and now i will appreciate what i have now... my parents, my frens, especially my ji muix... as i told yy and pn.. i don't know why i got a feeling i will be not able to spend time with my ji muix and hang out with them soon..T.T i feel like the time that i'm able to go here and there with my ji muix is becoming shorter and shorter... i know i'm silly..T.T but i just got this feeling..=( that's why now i'm trying my best to not skip any gathering and chance to meet up with them.. i will appreciate what i have now... 珍惜眼前人。。别等到一切都变成回忆。。