something to say..............

已经三个月没写东西了。。。 我在忙什么？？ 哈。。 我进了医院差不多两个月咯。。T.T 开开心心出了院谁知道又再进院。。 现在总算可以坐在家里休息一下。。哈哈！！ 在这三个月里，我的病真的让我醒悟了很多事情。说真的，这个病对我来说真的有好也有坏。。怀的当然是令我很不方便。。我的脚和手都很弱，很没有力。。好的，便是让我知道无论发生什么事，家人永远都是最好的。。=）其实我真的想过很多次要放弃，可能有些人会觉得我时常都说想放弃，他们也无奈了，听厌了。。。刚开始可能我会介意为什么他们不理我？？不过现在我不管了！！因为真真让我撑下去的理由是我的家人和我的一班好姐妹还有好朋友！！
我住了这么久的医院，我的妈妈便跟我一起住多久。。她一直都陪着我照顾我。。她睡那椅子也睡得腰酸背疼了！！ 真的很担心她。。还有我的二姐，她特地请假两天从新山回来代替我妈妈照顾我然后又回去。。她在这里的两天我真的很开心！！虽然我们没做什么特别的事情，不过我有那种过回以前的生活。。很舒服很自在。。=）他们一直都没放弃过我，所以我一定要振作！！一定要好起来！！。。。
还有我的一班好姐妹。。她们差不多每个星期都会来医院看我一次。。在医院里用轮椅推我去走走。。谈谈天，说说笑。。=） 她们从一开始便鼓励我。。就算我的情绪多差也没放弃我。。。=） 这一次我的病真的让我们的感情更加深厚，也让我知道了谁是我永远的好朋友。。。谁是无论发生什么事也会在我身边的好朋友。。。=）
还有一班好朋友。。。他们虽然不是认识我很久，不过他们也是有关心我，鼓励我。。 我也很想对他们说声谢谢。。=）



i have something to say....
my disease might take away something from me which is my health...
i can't move around freely just like normal teenagers and it also takes away my time which i spend with my friends...
but............
it gave something to me too...
because of my disease, i realized that who are the most important to me in this world...
i realized that how important to have a healthy body...
i have learnt to think positively no matter what happen and it's the time i have to be more mature!! everything also depends on myself especially my recovery...
i'm the only 1 who can help myself to fully recover...
so......... wong yoke ling, try your best to change yourself!! =)

friends...^^

as i said before this.. i got a feeling i will be not able to spend time with my friends soon.. and that's true... now my situation get worst already.. very inconvenient to go out with friends..T.T haih... sometimes i do feel 'zhi bei' and paiseh for keep asking help from friends... though they are kind enough to help me but just feel paiseh..T.T but after that day went to sing k with my ji muix and secondary school friends.. i really got the feeling of touch... haha.. mayb we have been knew each other for so many years, i not really got the feeling of zhi bei and paiseh to ask help from them..=)
yy...... i will not forget what u told me in msn... 'we are like ur family'.... though this sentence seem like quite simple for others but it is a powerful sentence for me.. yup.. we have been knew each other for quite many years.. and u all accompany me past almost every single difficulties.. without ur support, i think i can't alive until today... hehe..XD don't worry, i will try my best de..=) we gambate together!!
pn...... thx alot for lending me ur warm n strong arm when i need it!! it's really hard for me to climb staircase recently...T.T though just very short distance, but i feel very xin ku and i need very long time to finish it..=( but u all will not leave me behind and pei me walk slowly.. i really feel super happy and warm..=)
wy...... thx for giving me ur patience when im climbing up ur suzuki big car.. haha.. i still remember last time wy very care for safety de... after she open the car then will faster faster go in and lock the car.. haha.. for safety purpose ma.. i learn this from her..^^ but now she will say..'slowly slowly.. no rush..' haha..XD somemore when i can't go in the car because the space too small for me then she will reverse out first only let me slowly go in.. may be all these thing would be very small matter for other people but for me, it's really warm and it shows that they really care for me..T.T they will always by my side when i need help.. i can feel that..........." do not hesitate to ask help" from them.. hahaha..XD
not forgetting... i wanna thx to huei teng and wei ying too..^^ u both r really my secondary friends!! though u both dunno anything about my situation, but wihtout asking, u both just know that i need help and immediately lend me ur warm hand.. haha.. really my old friends!! lolx..
by spending time and going out with them, i no need to worry about anything.. when i say that..."shit!! the chair at there very low!! i sked i can't stand up!" then u all will say.."no problem la.. we help u ma can lo.." haha..XD


really thx alot friends!!! U ALL JUST LIKE MY FAMILY!! I MISS U GIRLS ALOT!!..T.T

团聚

米饭就代表家人。。一家人坐下来吃饭就代表一家团聚。。
我真的很想念以前我跟我的家人在佳节时一家人坐在一起吃饭。。 一家团圆。。。。。 现在却只能是回忆。。。。

永远在心中

this post is specially dedicated for natalie, hui ern and lei ying..=)



她们是谁？？她们是我在college认识的好朋友。不知不觉我已经开学五个月了。。在这五个月里，其实除了读书的压力，我觉得最辛苦最不开心的事情是我的病带给我的不方便。它真的影响很多我的日常生活。我的脚啊。。手啊。。我真的觉得很辛苦很累了。。。=（ 不过，也因为我的病，让我认识了一班好朋友。我真的很感激她们。。她们真的帮了我很多！！特别是natalie 和 hui ern。。 她们是我的同班同学。。无论在班里面或出去吃东西，我们都是在一起的。我想大家都能想像得到我有多依赖她们吧。。哈哈。。有时我也觉得蛮不好意识的。因为她们真的帮了我很多很多。。。变成她们好像我的阿四！！哈哈。。时常帮我拿这个拿那个。。不过，说真的。。。我真的很感激你们。。谢了，朋友！！ =） 在这个时候，我真的不能帮你们做些什么。。不过，我答应你们，我一定会尽量让自己好起来的。。等我好了过后，我一定会做回你们的阿四！！ 哈哈。。 natalie，改天我们一起去shopping，你的战利品就让我来拿吧。。=) hui ern,你时常都拿着一堆书的。。我知道你的muscle不是假的。。可是改天你就休息一下吧，让我来帮你拿一些。。=） lei ying,虽然你不是跟我同班的，但我也很谢谢你在我需要人陪我，听我倾诉的时候，你都很乐意地陪我。。而且我每次都很喜欢在三更半夜才找你。。哈哈！！sorry for disturbing ur sweet dream..T.T 不过，说真的，真的真的谢了。。=） 改天轮到我做回你的阿四吧。。哈哈哈。。。我能帮你做什么？？ 哈，我也不知道。。我帮你拿你的包包吧。。请你吃东西当你穷的时候。。哈哈！！

but seriously... i'm really appreciate it.. thx for lending me ur warm hand when i really need help.. what u al have done for me, everything will be kept in my heart forever.. thx alot, frens!!!...=)





and... of cause there is also another batch of frens will forever stay in my heart... yy, pn, pi, ss, wy n cf... whenever i feel not happy or down, i also still got abit feel lucky because my sickness has brought me one of the most valuable thing in the world................. true friendship...=）

speechless......T.T

i'm really speechless.... just now i can felt that my heart damn pain til i cant speak a single word...T.T it's just like a knife cutting my heart... why?? why always like that??.. i just hope that she will understand me only.. but i know that she forever wont...T.T i really speechless in this situation... heartbroken...=(

my life...

my blog is half dead!!.. haih.. i cant online at home recently.. wait for me to move new house first la..^^ ok.. let's talk bout my life recently.. start new sem edi.. quite busy and T5 really drive me crazy!! so many theory my eyes also @@....T.T i hate theory.. but i like T4..^^ cause mostly calculation.. and nowadays i really lazy to study at home.. everyday i also feel like goin down subang find my friends yam cha only.. but of cause i din't go everyday la.. but when i free and got car i will go!! kakaka..^^ i feel happy and funny to spend time with them.. they do help me alot at college and also at outside.. i feel im so lucky to have this kinda friends..^^V of cause i still got another batch of ji muix~ they will always in my heart!! lolx... this sat can meet u all edi!! so happy!! sun bian can go see nic teo too! wakakaz^^ i really lack of ideas what to write edi...T.T just end here bah.. and take carex lo all my friends!! nowadays alot ppl sick.. must take care of urself properly and stay away from those virus!! haha..XD my college there also got 1 tao fu sick edi! kelian kelian.. lucikly she dunno i got blog so she won't know i wrote down here!! kekeke..^^V

如果我变成回忆

recently i'm listening to this song and i love this song!! i like the meaning of this song.. we must appreciate what we have now and do not wait until everything becomes memories... i strongly agree this... everytime when i'm listening this song, it reminds me of my second sis.. i miss her so much.. last time when she was still staying with me, we always argue with each other.. because both of us also hot tempered.. i even tried b4 ran away from my house at midnight after quarrel with my sis.. but she is still my sis who i miss alot!!! haih.. i got 2 sis and 1 bro.. but my second sis is the closest to me among my siblings.. she is the one who take care of me when i was still a small baby.. last time my parents were busy working.. i still rmb when i was still a baby, still don't know say a single word, i keep on crying and of cause my sis don't know what i want as i don't know how to answer her.. she tried everything to make me stop crying but failed.. at last she gave up and just simply played a song(peng you by grasshopper) and i really stop crying!! lolx.. mayb because the beginning of this song got baby's voice.. hahaha..XD then when i was studying at primary school, got 1 time i came bc home with my both legs bleeding! coz i fell down during pj... then that time my sis still haven't own a car.. my parents haven't come back home yet and my house left a bicycle.. so no choice.. my sis ride bicycle and fetch me to the nearby clinic.. that time i was a super fatty!! my body size round like a ball!! haha.. and my sis thin like bamboo!! i really can't imagine how my sis was able to fetch me by riding a bicyle!! lolx.. then when teenager stage, when i was down, not happy and whole day didn't speak a single word, my sis and my bro in law will realize something happened and keep ask me what happen? who make me angry?? 'sat lun' izit?? lolx.. i will never tell my family anything happen to me outside.. so sure i will tell them nothing!! then they also won't ask me again but they will bring me go summit play pool, play dance machine, play daytona.... they just wanna cheer me up.. i really miss those moments we went out til late night and came in home quietly don't want let my parents know.. haha..XD and now i will appreciate what i have now... my parents, my frens, especially my ji muix... as i told yy and pn.. i don't know why i got a feeling i will be not able to spend time with my ji muix and hang out with them soon..T.T i feel like the time that i'm able to go here and there with my ji muix is becoming shorter and shorter... i know i'm silly..T.T but i just got this feeling..=( that's why now i'm trying my best to not skip any gathering and chance to meet up with them.. i will appreciate what i have now... 珍惜眼前人。。别等到一切都变成回忆。。

specially for u!!!..........^^

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO OUR LENG LUI SHEAN!!!
MAY ALL UR WISHES COME TRUE....^^

23rd & 25th may...=)

hoho~~ i got few 'tunggakan' haven't post!! lolx...

start with 23rd may..... scholarship ceremony at my college.. as usual da ceremony was delayed... haha..XD suppose to be 9a.m start but they started around 10+a.m.. lolx.. here are some photos..^^

me & shean...^^

blackie & whitie... lolx

okok... turn the attention to 23rd may night.. haha... i went to pyramid with pei ni...^^ we went there to pre order NIC TEO's album.. kaka!! after that we went to sakae sushi to have our dinner... at first we thought after dinner we will go hang gai gai but by the time we finish our dinner is already 9p.m...!! so we decided to continue our 2nd round of food... ice monster... then we around 10p.m finish it and again....... 3rd round of food!! lolx... we went to station 1 for supper!! hahaha...XD

sakae sushi!!

half finish ice monster..XD

ss15 station 1...^^

okok... let's talk about 25 may..... i rebound my hair again... yes... i'm happy that my hair straight already!! hoho~~ but the problem is the auntie again cut my fringe til too short la..!..T.T i tak biasa..><.. feel like nerd nerd d!!..T.T

dunno how long it takes to grow back tis length??..=(

update~~

haha... it's kinda long time never update my blog... same reason la..... LAZY!! and got so many exams this few weeks..T.T last 2 weeks ago just finish my progress test 2 then friday ngam ngam finish my mock exam..! phew~~ finally can rest a while since my final exam is on 13 june.. keke=) well.. yesterday after i finish my mock exam then i went to pyramid with my college frens.. thx to jian hua who became our driver and fetch us there...^^ then we ate sushi king as our lunch and watch movie.. ohya.. thx to shi khai too for belanja us pop corns.. hehe!! night at the muzuem 2... it's a funny movie!! hahaha..XD at night everything in da muzuem will become alive!! dynosour... monkey... elephant... cowboy... then somemore got ROME army and suddenly cartoon character and the robot in star war also pop out in the movie.. haha..XD after movie then i have to go kumon work again!! sobs.. so tired..T.T but nvm la since i was already late to work.. kaka..! suppose 5p.m but i reach there ard 7.30p.m.. kakaka..XD tmr evening going pyramid again with pei ni..^^ wanna go popular pre order NIC TEO's album... wakakaz..! then sun bian go hang gai gai a while release stress... then wanna go cari makan too..^^ must find smth nice to eat.. keke..!! but dunno why got abit feel sad..=( becoz actually me and peini planned to ask more ppl out and go together de.. but most of them also not free.. haih.. i feel sad not because of they can't come out but feel like nowadays most of my frens also started busy with their studies d..T.T the chance we really get to meet each other is becoming smaller and smaller..T.T really miss those time we everyday also can meet each other at school.. sit down chit chat and tease each other!!! haha.. and everyone of us also doin the same hw... not like now everyone also doin different hw.. some busy with mountains of assignments.. some busy with school hw.. i mean those form6 school hw.. haha...XD i got the feeling of being alone again!!.. haih.. i really hate this feeling.. but what to do?? can't blame anyone la coz everyone also busy ma... includng me.. i understand de.. but everytime i just can't control my own feeling...T.T because i'm a person that easily get affected by my feeling?? may be..O.o keke..XD anything la... as what shean said.. HANG ON!! keke..^^

i'm not as tough as u think...T.T

yes.. i'm not as tough as u think... tue i quarrel with my dad... and this made me think back alot of my sad memories since last year..T.T i started to think that am i as tough as i thought?? i don't know... may be my friends' impression on me is..."yoke ling is a tough girl.. last year the big problem happened to her but she still able to keep everything in herself until the last min only broke down in front of her best friends.." yes.. before this i had the same thought as my friends.. but now i feel that i'm not as tough as u think.. i really feel tired..=( i don't want to think about anything anymore!! my brain need rest... may be abit of alcohol could help...T.T i don't want to be sedar diri..T.T my life since the day i was born until my primary school is just perfect.. i felt that i was so lucky as i have a happy family.. no worry on my health.. last time i was glad that i always have my second sis... she always be my side and support me.. if i'm not in good mood, without knowing that what actually happen on me, then she will just try to help me destress myself.. but now everything is different..=( i have to face everything by myself.. i need to find my way to destress myself.. when i need someone to help me, actually nobody knows that...T.T now only i realize the importance of siblings... haih.. but i know that my sis was forced to leave me.. she also don't hope that actually.. so after she left me, i told myself.. i must be tough from this moment... i can't let my mum and sis to worry about me... that's why after my sis left this home, i never drop a single tear before and try to show my tough face in front of my mum... until the day i broke down at school..T.T fine... after that i wipe off my tears and continue my life... i told myself that i can do it!! i'm tough!! but why god can't just pity me abit and set my life as simple as it could be?? muscle problem came again and even more serious than last time...T.T family's problem.. then relationships problem... yes.. i really want to be tough but how many times i need to tell myself that i'm tough then wipe off my tears and continue my life again?? i'm just a normal human being and i will feel tired too...T.T haih... just now i read shean's blog and actually she facing the same problem as me this whole week.. i left a msg in shean's cbox and hope could help her abit.. but i know that actually my support is not that good and not really could help her because i'm facing the same problem and this problem has been in my heart since last year.. just like a question and answer.. but i still couldn't find the answer for this question...T.T i really need someone who really understand me and support me.. but who could help me?? who will be the 'someone'?? i don't know..=( may be nobody could be the 'someone' except my second sis because only siblings willing to sacrifice their everything and able to spend all their time with u when u are down and need help.. now inside my heart got alot "i don't know"........=(

happy mother's day...^^

haha... this year mother's day only got me, my dad and my little nephew celebrate with my mum... becoz both my sis also not around... haih... but nvm la.. as long as they got heart then can already la.. keke..^^ luckily i got my salary for this month already... hehe.. so now i got money to celebrate with my mum.. i bought a cake for mum without letting her know.. lolx.. but got 'cun bo' anot then i don't know la... kakaka... may be my mum just pretend don't know..=p ops.. haven't tell i bought what cake.. it's mango lychee cake from bread basket..^^ my mum like this cake very much!! everytime we purposely went there just to eat the cake but they don't have..T.T so i decided to order it few days ago then today i go take only.. hehe!! funny la that day when i ordering the cake coz i accidentally let my mum saw the auntie there passed me the receipt.. ish...>< then my mum asked me wat i buy?? then i told my mum that the auntie offer me a part time job at there..^^ but actually they have alot of waiters already!! haha..>< i also planned to bring my mum go eat 'dim sum' this monday morning.. go 'lan hua yuan' eat.. that's why i said luckily i got my salary already.. haha..XD who asks me so pandai spend money?? actually it's my idea too..^^ nvm la.. as long as my mum happy then anything also no prob la..^^ without my mum i can't come to this world... and i can't experienced so many things.. even can't meet my 6 best sis and all my beloved friends.. keke!! though there are still some unhappy experiences in my life too...T.T but who didn't experience that before?? sure everyone got same experience as me except my health problem.. hehe but i'm still glad that my mum brought me to this world...^^
MI ar~~ though sometimes i really feel like u got abit 'cheong hei' but i know that u are care for me thats why u will be 'cheong hei'...XD and don't worry... after i come out work d sure i will jaga u back de...^^



with you.....
i no need to worry about my daily tasks...



with you.....
i no need to worry about my financial problems...XD



with you.....
i no need scared of any cheating as you'll protect me...



with you.....
i'm able to fill up myself with knowledge...



with you.....
i'm able to come to this world and do whatever that i like to...



WITHOUT you.....
there are no starting point and therefore millions of impossible in my life...



THX MUMMY!!! i can't give u anything special now but i know that the most valuable present that u hope to receive from me is i get good result and graduate from my tertiary study... keke..^^ don't worry.. i will try all my best to not disappoint u..... i love you mi~~~...^^
















the cake... paiseh... i 4got to take the photo
before my mum cut the cake...XD





















my little nephew~~ am i cute??...=p

HAPPY!!!!...^^

i was so happy just now!! when pn in facebook told me that "cf not goin kedah d" i terus go msn change my personal message...! hahaha..XD don't know why just feel super duper happy when i know that my sis is not moving further away from us...! keke... may b she is goin oversea which is even further.... but as pn said... oversea is better than kedah.. by the way, cf is not goin right now also la... 2 years later... keke!! so............ let's enjoy this 2 years sis!! wakakaz... this year cf can celebrate shean, pn, yy and my birthday together again!!! keke..^^ just feel happy and excited!! yipee~~

tagged by chay fhun

1. Besides your mouth, where is your favourite spot to get kissed?
Cheeks, maybe.

2. Were you happy when you woke up today?
Not really.. becoz i got exam today n feel sleepy..

3. How about now?
Dunno... ok ok la..XD

4. Do you eat candy on a daily basis?
yup.. becoz candy helps me to stay awake especially in class..=p

5. Who was the last person you ate with?
My parents..

6. Are you currently taking a science class in school?
Nope.. i'm studying account.. haha

7. Kiss on the first date?
It depends.

8. Would you rather have chicken or steak?
I can't eat chicken and steak too..T.T

9. What were you doing at 10 am?
Having my break at college after my progress test..

10. Are you different now than you were six months ago?
Maybe..? let my friends answer this que la..XD

11. What was the last beverage you spilled on yourself?
crysanthemum tea...

12. How old will you be in 10 months?
18 years old... officially can watch 18sg movie d...!^^V

13. Who was the last person to text you?
dunno wor... forgot..

14. What month is your birthday in?
December.. late baby... keke

15. Can you live a day without TV?
Maybe.. i still got laptop.. keke

16. When was the last time you saw your dad?
Around 1 hour ago.

17. How many pets do you have?
According to my mum.. i can't even take care myself properly.. how to take care pet?? haha

18. Are you a female or a male?
FEMALE.

19. Do you prefer shoes, socks or bare feet?
Bare feet at home.. sport shoes when i goin out..

20. What are you doing for your next birthday?
I don't know.. but i'm sure that i wanna celebrate with my 6 sistas together..XD

21. What are you thinking about right now?
Hope my dreams will come true..

22. Any plans for next weekend?
Haven't plan yet.. may be goin out yam cha with my college friends??

23. Do you smile a lot?
When I'm in a good mood.

24. When was the last time you cried and why?
Last month... hmmm.. dun wan mention here la..

25. Have you ever had a life-threatening injury?
yupe.. i'm suffering from my muscle and skin problem.. izit that consider injury??

26. What do you want to be when you grow up?
Never think before..

27. Do you like flying or driving?
hmmm.. both...! haha..

28. Do you know how to drive a stick shift?
Huh? What is that?

29. What is your favourite thing to spend money on?
Anything that i like...=p

30. Do you wear any jewelry daily?
rings and bracelets?? yupe.. i'm wearing that daily..

31. Who got you the jewelry you're currently wearing?
my 6 best sistas and myself...XD

32. Who is the funniest person you know?
There's a few of them.. can't really list down all here..

33. How often do you remember your dreams?
Haha... i'm a forgetful person.. keke

my dearest sis... CHAY FHUN...

It's kinda long never update my blog... haha!! because of 'lazy-ness'!!..XD i spent my last saturday and sunday with my dearest sis...^^ last saturday night we had bbq farewell party at oncidium court... and sunday morning went to kheng's kopitiam ate breakfast with yy, pn, cf and wy... we also saw rachel and joyce there.. keke!!! i enjoy spending my time with my sis especially these 2 days.... because mostly this will be the last chance spending time with cf...T.T she decided to go kedah for her studies... i really mm she tak her... sobs... just now when cf's parents reach yy's house means cf got to go that time, my heart was super pain...T.T the feeling of mm she tak her become stronger and stronger... haih... why all my love one also have to leave?? my sis, my friends and now my best sis.... ish... sometimes i really feel like soon i will be alone...T.T last time i always have my sis and bro in law accompany me.. but they were forced to leave.. that time i really damn upset and sad because the first time i feel like i have to face everything alone and no one will help me.. i miss my sis who will share drinks with me, bring me to anywhere when i wanted to go.. my sis also is the one who helped me destress myself before or after my exam.. i still rmb we went to play pool and purposely drive all the way down to kl or oug just to eat the food that we feel like eating.. haha! crazy right?? haha!! thn followed by my love one... he is the first guy who able to make me control my temper and make me happy everyday.. but he also leave me alone now..T.T i accidentally hurt my hand and leg last week.. i really hope that he will sms me and comfort me or may be just ask for my condition.. i even hope may be he will help me to apply some medi on it... but i know it's 100% impossible!! ahem ahem... next topic la... cf and me had been in the same class since form 1 til form 5... i miss those time we went to school together... sit on the floor at tapak perhimpunan listen to the headmistress craping... study together in the class.. slp in the lab.. walked to the canteen and eat nasi lemak together..XD and the most happy 1, we gathered and chit chat together... we always pakat and tease pi together rite?? hahaha...XD though all these memories had past but i'm sure that it will not been deleted yet it'll stay in our heart forever... this is the magical of friendship between us.. keke..^^ CHAY FHUN ar~~~ u rmb take care at kedah le... bring "shoultex" (i dunno how to spell.. paiseh..XD), u know la.. sure the hygiene there super gud!! be careful dun kena denggi ar!! bring enough clothes and blanket lo... don't catch cold at there.. keke.. and rmb protect urself ar!! girls must always be careful... if got anyone bully u then sms me tell me!! i fly there chop that fellow!! kakaka..XD and if u got any problem or feel like wanna find someone talk to then just sms or call me k?? kl here got 6 phones are always get ready to receive ur call..^^ kla... i talked damn long already...! become ur grandma already.. i stop here lo...^^ take carex in everything and all the best ya..! GAMBATEH...^^

*gud luck to yy and pn in ur driving test again ya... keke!!

GUD LUCK SIS!!

To my best sistas:

sis.... gud luck in ur car test tmr lo!! i'm sure that both of u oso can do it de.. keke..^^no worries...^^ and remember don't panic lo... tonight just relax and rest more ya!! if cant sleep then go have a cup of hot milk.. hehe.. or u can call/sms me de... i will be a good listener who will concentrate listen to u sambil snoring... wakakaz..XD anyways... gud luck lo... gambateh... jia you!!

谢了，朋友！！

已经过了几天，在这几天里，我一直想起他，一直问自己：“为什么会搞成这样？”我甚至还想着不知道他会不会突然有一天回心转意。。 可是过后我会跟自己说：“别发梦了，还是别傻吧！”可能时间真的能冲淡一切。今天我感觉好多了。。时间真的能冲淡我的伤心。可是却不能帮我把他从我的记忆里删除掉！我还是会想念他，可是现在当我想起他时已经没那么心疼了。。既然我不能忘记他，或许现在我能做的就只好永远把他收藏在我的记忆里吧。。=（ 在这几天里，我真的很感激我的朋友。。他们令我感觉到温暖。一班知道发生什么事的朋友就一直安慰我支持我。而另一班不知道发生什么事的朋友就继续嘻嘻哈哈。。他们感染了我的心情。。 令我没那么不开心了。。=）虽然他们有时会不小心勾起我的伤心，不过我知道他们不是故意的。。谢了，朋友！！ 我会尽力地接收事实，不过我还是不能够忘记他！！=（ 我知道我很没用。。=（ 不过这个地球是不会因为我而停下来的。。我还是需要继续我的生活。。我很幸运因为我有一班很好的朋友，很好的姐妹！！。。=）至于他。。。。。我就只好把他永远地收藏在我的记忆里吧。。。=（

我的回忆不是我的

以前我还真的很喜欢这首歌。。可是现在我反而觉得很怕听到这首歌！因为它会令我想起他。。=（ 今天早上我起身的时候，我还以为我今天比较好一点了，没那么想念他了。。原来不是！！无论我在哪里，看到什么或听到什么，我都会想起他！我真的很讨厌自己！为什么我这么没用！早上当我跟在我表嫂后面走着的时候，她突然跟我说：“你真的要照顾好自己，你一生的幸福就在这里了！”其实她是在讲着我的手。不过我自然而然的就想起了他！=（ 然后当我们全部人都在车里时，突然一阵铃声响起。。“我爱的人不是我的爱人~” 是陈小春唱的歌。我真没用！又再想起他！！然后在路上回着家时，收音机播着阿SA 和林俊杰的歌“小酒窝”以前当我听见这首歌时，我是觉得甜的可是现在却是酸溜溜的！=（ 我真的是无时无刻都很想念他！！其实以前当他在ns 的时候我也是无时无刻地想念他。无论我看见什么，我都会想起他。什么事情都很想与他分享。不过那时我想到他的感觉是甜的。虽然我要等到周末才能找他，不过我真的感觉很开心。完全不会疼苦！可是现在每次我想起他的时候，我的心真的疼极了！！其实从我一开始选择了他后，我便知道我一定要等他很久。可是如果我不肯等，那我就不会选他了啦！可是现在却是他不肯让我等！=（ 我知道既然现在他已经做了决定，那无论我再做什么或说些什么，我都不可能改变事实。我会尽力地接受它，不过我真的不可能忘记他！！=（ 现在我每天想起的回忆都好像不属于我的。。=（

最倒霉的一天！！

我还以为这种倒霉的日子只会在我过去的两年发生。。怎知道昨天又再次发生了。。=（ 昨天早上当我还在车里睡觉时，我受到了一封我不想要的信息。我很想其实我是在发着梦。梦醒了就会变回以前一样。。=（ 我真的不知道为什么他会变得这么快！我完全没有心理准备。=（ 而且我也没逼他，为什么他要这么快做决定？其实你还记不记得你答应过我什么？你说过无论我伤心或生气，你都会在我身边不会丢下我一个人的。=（ 你还答应我很多事情都还没做到。。说好的幸福呢？=（ 如果是因为我做错了什么而让你做了这个决定，那我真的很后悔，很想改过。可是我知道现在我做什么都没用了。。昨天一整天我头脑里都在回忆着我跟他的回忆。。我已经想尽办法不让自己空闲下来就是为了不让自己想念他。可是要我不想他我真的办不到！很感激我的好姐妹！她们都很担心我。。传短讯安慰我，我会努力的。。 不过我真的需要时间。。现在我除了要应付我伤心的情绪，我还要在我父母的面前装做若无其事。因为我不想让他们知道。可是在下午的时候，我跟我妈妈却无端端吵了起来！=（ 可能我真的需要谢谢我妈妈。。不是因为这样吵了一吵，我就不能真的哭了出来。。 之前我一直感觉心很痛可是我怎样都哭不出来。。=（ 我还在家里喊了出来。喊了过后真的有一点舒服了。现在我的声音都已经沙了。。然后我的眼泪就一直在我眼眶里要流要流似的。刚以为哭完了但眼泪却又再次流出来。。无论我去到哪里或做着什么，我总是会想到他！。。=（ 要我忘记你?? 我真的真的办不到！

just not used to it..T.T

2 days already... I msg him many times but he just replied once... told me that he was sick so can't reply and now better le.. don't worry... then suddenly i feel like wanna call him and may be talk a while... so i took up my phone and called.... at first it was connected! i was so happy but after a while then voicemail...T.T i told myself may be he is busying at church now so better don't disturb him... i'm just not used to it... i'm already used to have him to msg me everyday except when he was in ns... i'm just used to have him to concern me always... when i'm sad and keep on thinking too much then he will stay awake until late night to comfort me.. when i skip meal then he will scold me.. i'm just used to see his msg from the second i wake up until i sleep.. i still remember last week don't know what's wrong with me... i keep on think back my sad memory... then i so stupid until i asked him don't so concern me and don't so close with me..T.T because i don't want later me and him will change until like what me and my another friend like that...=( last time i also quite close with my another friend but now me and my friend changed already.. we seldom msg and seldom contact.. i felt hurt..T.T that's why now i'm worrying what will happen to me and him in the future.. i don't want we will change to like that!! sobs.. but now i understand already.. no one knows what wil happen in the future.. so now i must appreciate what i have but not worry... that's why now i so regret asked you don't so concern me and don't so close with me..=( so sorry!! i promise i won't ask you that again k?
now only i realize that i'm just not used to don't have you to msg me and concern me...T.T i will miss you when i can't contact you..=( so stupid i was when i asked you that!! sobs... sorry!!
you always stay my side support me when i'm having problem so now you sick until so serious already i hope i also can stay ur side support you..^^ though now i can't get to contact you but i will mentally support you de k? you must take care k? i got alot thing want tell you~ faster get well so that we can chat before you go back ns k?..^^

THE SEVEN!!..^^

Finally... i created my blog!!!...Wakakaz..^^ actually this blog should be created last year... but sagittarius is always related to LAZY!! hehe.. whatever... and of course..... my first post is about them...!! who are they???...............................




















MY 6 BEST SIS!!..^^

时间过得真快。。不知不觉我已经毕业了。。而且令我最伤心的是我跟我的姐妹分开了。。我们不能每天见面了。。不过无论我们之间的距离有多远，你们永远都会在我心里。。^^
其实你们给了我什么回忆？？到底你们给我留下什么影像？
有一间事是令我影像最深刻的，你们还记得去年发生什么事吗？去年我家里发生了一些不愉快的事情。那时我真的超级压力。不过我又没告诉你们。只是往自己肚子里吞！然后在运动日之前我跟碧茵便吵起架来。（我们俩时常都是这样的。哈哈）然后我便再也忍不住了。。我就在学校里哭了。。=( 盈莹。。我永远都不会忘记躺在你怀里哭的那种温暖的感觉。=）我还记得佩霓和彩芬爱慕能助的样子。。哈哈！虽然秀贤，文韵和碧茵不在场，但是每次我遇到什么问题，我知道你们一定会在我身边支持我的，对不对？哈哈！！还有我一定要跟你们说声谢谢！最近我的肌肉问题又再严重了。。可是你们没嫌弃我，而且一直帮我，支持我。。你们永远都不会把我留在后面。我拿不到食物你们帮我拿。。我不能追巴士你们陪我慢慢走。。我拿不到书包你们帮我拿。。有一句话可能会有一点老土可是我一定要讲。。真的谢了。。是真心的。。=）